Depressed

I am going through depression right now. I actually feel tired, non-motivational and basically just blah! I mean I have NO energy at all. I didn't even realize the depth of my depression until today. I have a great family. I have a roof over my head and food to eat so to a person who doesn't understand depression they would just say "snap out of it". It is not that easy though. I don't want to do anything or go anywhere. I have zero motivation. At this point I am just praying the depression will lift soon. I really don't eat much during the day. I certainly don't have a problem keeping weight on. I would like to be 20 pounds lighter than I am. I can't exercise because it causes my bladder to just go into spasms. I would love to be able to work out. I would love to be able to work. I really miss working. I know a lot of people would think that was crazy but if you like your job and you stay busy then you tend to be a lot more happy than being stuck at home with tv or the internet. Yes, I do sometimes read. People tell to find a hobby. Well I have tried a few things but I can't stick with one thing long enough to enjoy it. I get distracted to easy or just get really bored of it. Ok, well enough of my whining. I am not trying to feel sorry for myself because I know there are other people much worse off than me. This is my blog for today and I apologize it is not a positive one but I am human after all. (I think) lol!!